Today I am 19 weeks and 2 days along, I am so close to being half way there! It is crazy to think that on Monday I will be 20 weeks along. So, what has my journey been like up to this point?
In my last post I explained how we found out we were pregnant a week before Christmas. We actually took a cheapy pregnancy test first and I after I took it I threw it away thinking it was a negative result. For some weird reason I decided to look at it again later, yes I took it out of the garbage and looked again, kind of gross I know. Anyways, there was hardly even a line there and by hardly I mean hardly. I had to call Jay up and make him look at it to, to make sure I wasn’t crazy for what I was seeing and I wasn’t just imaging what I wanted to see. The next day we decided it would be a good idea to spend the money on a more expensive digital test. I went in the bathroom did my thing and came back out with the stick. Sat it on the counter in the kitchen and we waited. I couldn’t stop looking at the blinking clock on the digital test. Jay even made me cover it because I was driving him crazy. I kept lifting up the paper looking. It felt like the longest 3 minutes ever. Then . . .
I looked at Jay, smiled and said, “I’m not crazy!” haha! Two weeks leading up to this moment I had been pretty grumpy and wasn’t sleeping well which is very unlike me. We hugged and held each other. This moment was different from the first time. We were both scared. Reasonably so after what we had been through the time before. We had that, “This is to good to be true” feeling. This time around we decided we would only tell a very select few people about the pregnancy until we made it to a certain point. I did call and tell my Mom that night, but I asked her not to say anything till we told who we wanted to tell. We had dinner at my sisters house that week and the way we decided to let them in on our secret was to have my Parents, Brother, Sister and her boyfriend Luke open up an envelope and inside included a picture of us with our positive test and a message. We had Jay’s parents open theirs on Christmas Eve when they came over and we also wanted to let my cousin Paul, Amy, Grace and Little Luke know so we gave them theirs when they came early.
The following weeks we were still freaked out. We had to make it till I was 8 weeks to see the doctor and it seemed like it took forever for that week to come. Things were definitely different this time around, much different from the first time. I experienced extreme fatigue, and I mean extreme to the point of being completely un-motivated. I didn’t want to do anything but sit on the couch and rest. To top it off I was really nauseous. Thankfully not to the point of throwing up everyday, but I did have days where I was sick from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep. Oh, and this just so happened to be one of the worst cold flu seasons ever! I was so sick over New Years and I couldn’t take ANYTHING so I was miserable and still freaked out about loosing the baby. I ended up going to urgent care to get an anti-biotic that was safe for me to take while in my first trimester. Two weeks after getting over my cold . . . I got the flu. I was sick for a full week, was even throwing up. So horrible!
When I hit twelve weeks things were getting better, by 14 weeks I was feeling like ME again! No more fatigue, no more sickness!
How do I feel now? I feel awesome! I am happy, sometimes grumpy (thank you hormones), energized, and just really excited! I even have my motivation back again. Jay and I go to the gym every morning when we wake up. Now that I am way out of my first trimester I am enjoying this pregnancy. Seeing my baby moving all around and seeing that all her body parts are coming in normal 
and she is healthy as can be really put my mind at ease. I do still have some fears, what if my baby comes out retarded, what if something is wrong, what if she isn’t healthy . . . I think it is normal to have those fears.
What are things I crave? Well, I was already obsessed with Ajo Als Con Queso dip, but now I feel the need to try to get Jay to take me there once a week so I can have it, and that is all I eat for my dinner haha! I love it that much! I also crave Sour Punch Straws. Other than that, I do not have weird cravings. I do crave Dos Equis beer which sucks because I can’t have it.
We already have the baby’s furniture here and put together in her room. Dresser, changing table, crib and my Grandad got us a rocking chair. Oh, and I already had the bedding picked out and my Mom bought me all the bedding and the extra’s I wanted to go with it . . . we get so excited about things it makes it hard to wait! There is still so much she needs though. Sometimes it overwhelms me thinking of all the things she needs.
I have my monthly appointment tomorrow, I always look forward to them because I get to hear her heartbeat. I pray things continue to go smoothly and she continues to stay healthy and normal.
Psalm 139:13
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
, is expected to arrive on Labor Day, haha, September 2nd which puts me currently at 18 almost 19 weeks pregnant. Our journey to this point has not been an easy one, but it is a journey God has been a part of 100% of the way.
December has always been a very special month to Jay and I. It is when we had our first date, when we officially became boyfriend and girl friend 7 1/2 years ago, the birthday of our savior and it is also when my parents had their first date. Now we can add that we found out we were going to have a baby! Very special.
